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Sunday, July 22, 2012

I'm Just Sayin'

"Little brother "A" still taking care of his big brother "J" !!"

                                          I’m Just Sayin’”
                                                                 by Alan P. Scaglione
Who knew?
Who could possible know…that a long forgotten violin, tucked away in the extra bedroom of my brother’s townhouse, not even remembered by his widow until asked…
Could mean so much to a stranger….20 miles, a bridge and a lifetime away.
But….apparently, it did!
I am still tying up loose ends for my big brother Joe.
Funny how I seem to have gotten elected, by default, to the task of tying up his loose ends.
I don’t have the luxury of deciding what I will and won’t do… I get the leftover tasks.
Like writing and delivering the eulogy.
Like picking up and spreading Joe’s remains.
Like letting his old friends know…that Joe had left us on May 12th, 2012.
Old friends who hadn’t seen or heard from him… in years!
Funny thing about true old friends…time seems to pass, but yet…no time passes. Hearts connected are still….connected hearts!
Joe had a friend named Ken. They were best of friends in Joe’s earlier life. Ken and Carol were a couple Joe spent a lot of time with.
When Joe moved over to Clearwater, travelling the bridge that connects it to Tampa, he just left Tampa and all of his connections, behind.
And Ken and Carol…they were some of those Tampa Connections.
Joe found out last year that Ken had passed away.
He called me crying. “I should have never lost contact with Ken. I should have not let him down. He meant so much to me, and now… he’s just gone!”
Joe ended up writing a song for Ken. He called me one morning and sang it to me. It was touching and reflective and remorseful.
I knew… Joe would want me to find Carol and let her know… Joe and Ken were together again!
I must have a way, or… I am just tenacious! I set out to find Carol.
Facebook found her daughters. For those who still have landline phones, and luckily, Carol still did, the White Pages had their name, number, address.
Carol was found!
Now reaching her…that took some time!
Messages were sent—no response.
Finally, weeks later, my phone rang from an unknown source. I usually do NOT answer those, but… my gut said “Take this one!”
I did.
It was Carol. She got my messages. She remembered me. She said she remembered me bringing my kids to their house for dinner—I didn’t remember any of that.
I told her of Joe’s passing.
Her first words were “Ken lent Joe his violin. I would love to have that back. It meant so much to me. Ken used to play that violin for our girls. I loved seeing him play!”
Who knew?
And who knew that the violin in the spare bedroom in my brother’s townhouse housed this instrument that meant so much and brought back so many memories…
 For an old friend who had been deserted years ago.
But…apparently, it did.
So… being the brother who takes on the task of tying up my dearly departed brother’s loose ends… I set out to find this violin.
I spoke to Joe’s widow. I asked her if she recalled a violin. She said, “The one in the guest bedroom? That’s not Joe’s? I just thought he bought it. That’s not his?”
I explained the story and how Carol had asked to have it back.
She was immediately agreeable. “Of course. I didn’t know it wasn’t Joe’s. Please give it to her!” I took it with me, along with about 10 boxes of Joe’s life.
And I contacted Carol. I had the violin—it was coming home!
Funny what you keep—to remind you of those who’ve left you.
I have three dried out roses—Ellen, Aunt Ciria, now Joe! From their funerals. Makes me cry.
Made me wonder?
What will my wife keep of mine… to remind her of me?
I asked her… she said “Please don’t talk about you leaving!”
I thought to myself “somebody needs to—it could happen, and all that would be left is… a violin, in the corner of a room, wanting to go home!”
Until Next Time
I’m Just Sayin’…
Brother “A”
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Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Points2Ponder

"Life happens...when you're making other plans!"
                                     Points2Ponder
                                                                                                       By Alan P. Scaglone
I was supposed to be somewhere else this week.
Anybody ever have one of those weeks?
Dreams are meant to be dreamt – sometimes, even to be realized!
I had it planned since February—The National Book Convention!
I had been invited due to my new book One Unexpected Event that they published.
The meeting is normally in other places, like New York City or Dallas or LA!
But this year—this year, it’s in Orlando!
The city where I live (during the week!).
How convenient—How Perfect!
It’s a weeklong convention—and I had my vacation approved at work for the WHOLE WEEK. Sweet!!!
I was headed to my first book convention.
Remember the line “The best laid plans of mice and men!” ?
Yep—it was going to be a memorable week!
And then….it happened!
POINTS2PONDER  When are we allowed to feel a little bad…about doing the right thing?
A family situation arose—the right thing to do was…take care of the situation.
For those who know me best, they know… I AM that guy! The guy who does the right thing…whenever possible…it’s just the right thing to do…so, I do it!
Even WHEN it means…CANCELLING my Dream Week!
And so…I DID!
All of it—the whole week! Every event, every celebration, every opportunity!
All gone!
And I went to work this week…. Like if nothing else had ever been planned!
But…I have to admit…each night, I would allow myself to wonder?
“Wonder what the Concert was like Sunday night?”
“Wonder what the Reception was like Monday night?”
“Wonder what it would have been like to meet all those authors I interviewed?”
And then I stop, lecture myself and remember
I did the right thing! Bottom line, I did the right thing!”
But…then for a moment, I just ask…myself….
“Why does it feel so bad to do the right thing?”
And for some reason, a random thought comes in my head
Anybody remember the old Tammy Wynette song???
I am a Christian Lord, but I’m a woman, too!”
I know… random right?
But it kind of does explain the plight we sometimes feel…
That age old fight between good and …self!
Sometimes…it’s NOT the devil who tempts us and makes us wonder…
Sometimes…it’s just life and all of the decisions that we are faced with.
Sometimes…it’s knowing the right thing to do…but also… knowing what you want to do!
Anybody else out there been through a moment, a day, a week like this?
We will do the right thing because…it’s the right thing to do—bottom line.
But sometimes, if we admit it, even if only to ourselvesit sometimes hurts to do the right thing!

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